Usually, on my way back home at
nights in the office cab, my mind is pre-occupied with many many things. I put on the earplugs and
music as soon as the cab starts. That time of about 45 minutes is my time
always. I avoid making calls that time. And occasionally check Facebook. But
more or less, that time is mine. And more often than not, as soon as the music
is tuned in, memories of people, some nice times and some things good, bad and
ugly flood my head. Those 45 minutes are not just me and music. There are
memories too. Sometimes, I am thinking about the missed chances and sometimes,
close escapes.
However, tonight it was different. Pleasant
weather with cool breeze, an overcast sky with a sporadic appearance by moon
from behind the thick blanket of gray clouds, air-conditioning off in the cab,
windows rolled down, music plugged in. And then, I felt one with nothing and no
one but myself. I felt alone but not lonely. In those moments, I was actually
living in them. Suddenly there was nothing to drain my brain. No good, bad and
ugly. Nothing. The thoughts were positive. I was thankful. There was hope. Hope
for the new leaves that shall be turning in soon. Hope for something better.
Infact, music too seemed fading away
in the background. It was as if I was flowing and blending seamlessly in the
fast changing landscape around me, from one flyover to another, from one lane
to another crossing.
I have never felt so over-whelmed
with feelings that I am still to name, like I did tonight. I knew I had to
treasure this night. For those nights when I may not feel this hopeful or life may
not be upto the mark. I knew I had to stash this night away for eternity, in my
memory. I knew this night had to be chronicled because it was one of a kind for
me.
And that is how the quietness of
this night looked.
Nothing explains the feelings more beautifully than this:
Night, the beloved. Night, when words fade and things come alive. When the destructive analysis of day is done, and all that is truly important becomes whole and sound again. When man reassembles his fragmentary self and grows with the calm of a tree. (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
P. S I knew I had to write about it even though it
will get late and I have office tomorrow. :)
Beautifully worded piece you have written here. Night has always been associated with mystery, when mysterious creatures come out and play with our fantasies and also play out our fantasies.
ReplyDeleteCheers to the night when everything is dark but not gray,
when witches, ghosts and lost souls come out and hunt for their prey.
when innocent souls like us pray and write through the darkness till the first light of day,
Cheers to the night
when everything is bright and gay
when spirits rejoice and to the ethereal tune of happiness they sway.
Forgive me for these random lines. Your post and pics inspired me to pen them down.
Swati!! You described the night so brilliantly! Good work and thanks for hijacking the space and wording this. :-)
Delete:)
ReplyDeleteIt was soothing just to read this you know :)
Thank you very much! :-)
DeleteThis is so beautiful!! Ethereal!
ReplyDeleteGlad you liked it magic eye. :-)
DeleteThe way you have put it here...I wanted to be in your place to experience it :)
ReplyDeleteSmita, I wrote as closely as I could to what I was feeling. It really was magical. I wish you the same soon!
DeleteRainy nights, summer nights .. sigh ..
ReplyDeleteDefinitely, rains had a lot to do with the night Ruchira. I second.
DeleteThis is so lovely, Naina. The thoughts flowed like water, from your mind to the paper..
ReplyDeleteSo glad you took time out to drop by and read it and thanks for the kind words. :-)
DeleteI totally could feel the mood you painted with your words. We all crave for such awesome downtime when the only person we want to enjoy it is with just ourselves!
ReplyDeleteThanks Rickie. Yes, that time is always my time and that night it just elevated to something really good.
DeleteOf course you had to capture what seems to be a wonderful, intimate moment with yourself! Loved it!
ReplyDeleteThanks Roshni. The moment would have been lost forever really otherwise.
DeleteYou conveyed your thoughts so well. There seems to be magic in the air, turning everyone romantic/nostalgic/philosophical... guess its the rains :)
ReplyDeleteBhavya, take my word on it. It is the rains!
DeleteAnd thanks for dropping by!